where to even begin.

the most amazing part about the grand canyon is watching the crew become a cohesive tribe. becoming a herd animal and finding family in the cooky birds that made the 235 mile journey through the big ditch. in itself, I realized about half way through our trip what a fleet we were. 8 boats is a big crew. though we were slow getting off the beach every morning, I was still amazed that everyday we did and rigged 8 boats. and every day we ran rapids as a group. when ever possible engaged worm drive that resulted to impromptu partying. this was a crew that didn’t need any arm twisting to get their party on. or to go big. 

three amazing weeks of sleeping under the stars, on sandy beaches in the bright moonlight. watching out for scorpions. I brought outfits I loved tripping in and my tutus made their rounds through the tribe.

heavy lotions become a commodity. the sand, water and sun are surprisingly hard on your body, skin and belongings. rig to flip everyday and waterproofing your life. me and Alex lived on the Jawp for three weeks and I never hated her once, not even a little. when I hugged her good bye at the take out, I was close to bursting into tears. I cried later. I miss her like crazy and I love her with all my heart. there are only a couple friends in my life I love as much as her.

I have a boyfriend. yes I do. it’s kind of odd. kid of exciting. a boyfriend who is completely fine and content with the fact that I am gone for periods of time. he picked me up from the airport when I got to montana before my grand trip and I spent 36 hours with him. when I got off the plane I wasn’t sure what to expect, or how it might be. it was nice. easy. after my grand trip I spent what ever time I had with him.

last night in my trailer I finally asked him. or pretty much told him. he told me he’d figured that out before I came back from finland. and wondered when I was going to ask. I didn’t really need to bring it up, since I could tell the difference. that’s what the flowers were for.

wonderful a little. it fits.

my life is amazing. abundant and full of joy. today I am incredibly grateful for the life I get to live. for the friends and family I have. I am in love with life, and life is in love with me.