looking in. at myself from here. from another point of view. since I have been back, one of the things I have been surprised by and taken great delight in, is the startling amount of people whom take the time to greet me. say their lovelies. rushing up for gleeful hugs. kissing their hellos.

I suppose. that after my resolutions that friends matter the most. and being alone amongst all these wonderful people and getting to know them. being single. sharing my own moments with them has made me loved. love is all around me. what I receive from the people around me creates the environment, I don’t need to create a family to be loved and to belong. I’ve created that family right here. I feel loved and cared for by the people I surround myself with and the community that is here. and I don’t need a boyfriend to feel important and cared for.

then there’s all these invites for hut and rating trips that keep flooding in that make me wish there were more months in our seasons. I feel like I’ve gotten on some single-space-left-for-last-minute-trip-who-do-we-know!?-call-Tiia-list. not a bad list to be on. right now I could spend the next 12 days in the Woody Creek Cabin in Cooke City if I wanted to. I might have to turn down some of it.

tested my well today. now there’s no reason to hold back. I am doing this. all in.