new opportunities are brewing. I am excited about the potential, I am wasted by dreams of a future I would like to have. I have everything in order, I have been working towards a certain kind of a goal in life and I am thrilled about the potential looming in my future of making some of these dreams come true. there’s lots of work ahead. lots of hours to donate for future. money and career, for an even better life. for an easier future. one that fits kids, house and a husband /!/

I have a nice life. I have a wonderful man in my life. he cooks for me, cleans, watches out for me and takes care of my things, makes sure I get out of bed when I need to. we have been together for little less then a year now. and during that time we have only really fought twice maybe. once for sure. we get annoyed with each other sometimes, but that happens for anyone. even then we don’t really fight. nothing ever escalates unless one of us just decides to pick a fight. and often we don’t decide. we both don’t bother to fight much. it’s just a waste of time and there always seems to be an ocean of understanding between us. like we share an unseen bond, that is not understood by anyone else but us. only we know why and how it’s possible. life is just so easy with us together. I am trying to decide which are the things that are most important for me in a partner. if career is not on the top of the list of requirements, does the simple fact of being able to LIVE with this person matter the most? should it? can I drop importance of a career from the top of my list? what would my mom think?

and it’s snowing outside. I have been skiing all weekend and my thighs are sore. endless powder. faceshots and knee deep fluff. I am breathless, happy and content.

and excited!