sometimes when I snuggle up to James when we are watching a movie, taking a shower or when we are just standing in the kitchen, I think how wonderful it is to have such a thing in my life. intimacy of another human. I can’t think of many things sweeter than being able to bury my face into his arms, feels his warmth and exhale. I often try to imagine how lonely I felt for the time living in Bozeman when I had no one to hug, to hold or to care for.

sometimes I wonder what it would be like to leave him. to be alone again. and I know how terribly I would miss being able to touch him or hold his hand anytime I want. I think of all those who are single for years and don’t get to feel loved in that way. and I often think of myself, being single. sometimes the loneliness and desire just to be touched and held was overwhelming. and sad. it makes me understand how much all of us, as human beings, live to be close to one another. we all need human touch and we all need to feel like we belong. we all need a community, friends, a family and loved ones.

the stuff of life.

I sometimes think I am blessed to be a person who finds love in many places. and to be a person who is loved, in general, by many. love comes easier for me than it comes to many people I know. and I would wish this kind of bliss of being close to a human, being intimate, to anyone and everyone.

to have loved and to be loved so, is truly a wondrous thing!