somedays I can’t believe I’ve met someone who is just like me. we understand each other in a way I’ve never had with someone. at times, we communicate just by looking at each other. he says a lot just by looking at me. we understand the small nuances of each other. I know what he’s thinking. most of the time.

it’s taken me a lot to let go of fears past and trust that somewhere out there, he’s mine. he wants to be mine. as I am astounded by our connection and trust, he is equally surprised. andrew can’t believe it either. somedays he tells me he’s surprised I haven’t left him yet.

I’ve waited for him my whole life. from the day we saw each other, it was clear as day for both of us. it just happened and neither of us did anything to slow it down. when I said we can’t honeymoon all the time, when I came back the next day he told me he wants us to honeymoon more, not less.

it will be a few months until I get to see him again. he’s back in australia working. I’m flying back to the land of the free on thursday to do my summer guiding thing. I’m turning a new page on how my life has been arranged for past 5 years and I welcome this change openly.

he came to stay with me in Finland. I held him hostage on the island for ten days. we barely left the island. we didn’t want to.