dear god.

how did this happen?

Cory turns out to be someone I didn’t expect him to be. I am more amazed by him as the days roll on. he is a myriad of a person. somehow, him and I make sense together.  I always took him for tad strange. took him or a dirt bag, really. and he is. but in odd ways. in the same ways that I am.

he sees me as unique. and I know I am. I feel like with him, I am unique. and it feels amazing to be seen that way by him.

I am so complete in love with him it’s absurd.

people like us together. I like us together. everyone tells me he is such a great guy. I believe them now. people tell me we make a really cute couple. it’s strange, but I feel like we are. even though I think we are polar opposites, we have a dynamic I haven’t experienced before.

I like saying his name.

he’s fallen for me.

and then I leave. he might not be there when I get back. and that’s ok. all I can do is set him free. though it has been his idea all along to be there for me when I get back. to call himself my boyfriend. to be with me. to hold me every night.