the snow greets me. I have arrived in the prairie. there’s a foot of snow on all the side roads. fires are lit and eric’s hot tub treated me right when I got home.

went to go wake up Cory this morning. we’re seeing how this goes I guess.

first day of the season today! feels weird being back on skis. it comes back quickly. it’s good to be home. another season. I am so excited about this one. racing to get my ski legs back.

it’s nice to be a good skier. I amaze myself sometimes.

is this the biggest life? or a life half lived?

to some, my life sounds incredible. whomever I tell, is smitten with my story. my life is not without it’s riches, but when I am in finland I am incredibly home sick. I am anxious to leave, but I am also scared to leave. there’s so much work to do. work that matters. work that directly takes care of those in my life that matter.

my moose misses them when we leave. he’s excited to come home everyday to a house full of people. he’s so excited to get out of the car and run to the door he can’t even pee before going in.

to me, finland represent a strange mix of stoic heritage and patriotism with deep love that can only explained with deep roots, contrasted with seething hatred and constant frustration for it’s idiotic and brain washed people whom are incapable of original and logical thought. that, unfortunately, are the masses.

I would like to spend more time in the US, but for now, I take this. being here for only 2.5 months does not feel too bad, but I got a lot done. 4 months in a row if suicide.

my life is exactly what I want it to be.

I feel like life is a fleeting thing. every week counts. every year counts. I want to make it count. I am all over the place. I am on the plane again.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.

tomorrow I will kiss the american soil. I will kiss and hug the many friends that have become my family. the people I have chosen to be my family.

I will see my Kenny in Seattle in 14 hours. I will hug my Brittnea in Missoula in 2 days. I will kiss my Cory in ennis in 3 days. I will ski my Eric in Big Sky in 4 days.

I will freeze in my trailer in 3 days and love every god damn minute of it!